So sorry I’ve been MIA for a while again! I had a second lot of GCSE mocks last week in Maths, English and Science so I’ve been crazily busy!
Today I’m going to dig a bit deeper into an emotion that everyone feels – jealousy. This can occur in many aspects of life: school, work, family, friends; and I believe it’s very important to talk about dealing with this.
It’s all too easy to compare yourself to other people. For 3 years of secondary school I was completely obsessed with the competition I had with my then best friend. Every tiny test we completed, I would compare myself to her and I know she did the same. We always itched to improve, to beat each other, to triumph. It had got to the point when I felt a rush of guilty pleasure when I scored one mark higher than her in an English test. Why was I so hung up over one measly mark? Again and again, I would feel the green-eyed monster rise up inside me if she did better than me in any aspect of life.
At the beginning of Year 10, my friend and I were placed into opposite sides of the year, taking mainly different option subjects and spending barely any time with each other. I realised how different we both were – she had always been a Science and Maths person, I had always had a passion for History and English. She loved right and wrong answers, I enjoyed debating my opinion. I stopped being jealous of her grades and her talent, and learned to appreciate my own.
I still struggle with jealousy of course, in every aspect of my life. It’s all too easy to covet what we don’t have; a perfect test score, perfect boyfriend, perfect house, perfect hair. I try to remind myself of what I’m grateful for, but all too often that turns into a wish for something I don’t have yet.
At the end of the day, everyone is different. We’re unique, it’s one of the amazing things about creation. Wouldn’t if be dull if everyone had the same talents and passions, the same hopes and dreams?
So instead of tearing someone down internally with your jealously this week; appreciate the talents and gifts you have. Remember the people around you, who shape your life to be how it is – think how lucky you are to have them.
Let me know what you think of this post in the comments below and any ideas you have for the future!
Lots of love,